January 12, 2009

• It’s the last week before the semester starts and I’m kind of crapping my pants about it.  I mean…this is my last undergraduate semester?  This moment has really come?  I’ve aged four years since this moment seemed so impossibly far away?  It feels so surreal and it’s honestly kind of frightening.  So many things have happened and I have so few regrets, but at the same time I always wonder if I did everything correctly.  Have I lived my life the way it was supposed to be lived?  I don’t know, but I’m satisfied with the results.  I remember one of my very first posts was a list of goals I had going into my sophomore year of college and I want to revisit it.  Did I reach them?  Let’s see:
  

  1.)  My current weight is 130 lbs. and I must reduce it to 110 for it to be acceptable.

  Well, I weigh about 120 lbs right now and have set my goal weight in Weight Watchers to be 118 because I feel that is a more reasonable weight, especially since in just a couple years I will be producing offspring.  Consequently I am really close to an “acceptable” weight and I feel really good about my body right now, especially because of my new wardrobe and how fancy I look all the time.

  2.)  The crowding in my teeth must be corrected.

  I don’t really care about this.  My father has had all kinds of problems with his teeth since he got them straightened and I think a bit of crowding really can’t hurt anything in the long run as long as I brush and floss daily like I am now.

  3.)  The dry skin on my upper arm, while harmless, is slightly unattractive in the summer and must be dealt with.

  What the heck?  I don’t even remember this being a problem.  I guess you could say I reached this goal by purchasing lotion?  *shrug*

  4.)  I must revitalize my poor mental image of myself.

  Done.  I feel great about myself.  I have a wonderful, loving and extremely supportive fiance.  I have professors who think I am an amazing person and who wrote outstanding letters of recommendation for me.  I am going to graduate school to pursue my dream of one day becoming a professor myself and discovering something groundbreaking.  My family loves me and I’ve even picked up a second family because of my fiance who also think I’m wonderful.  Everything is working out for me and aside from the fact that I can be a complete asshole sometimes I think I am great and because of this I can provide a more loving relationship with everyone around me.  You have to love yourself before you can love others.

  5.)  While I have already found the perfect male companion, I must also find the perfect female companion who is pleasing in her physical, mental and spiritual states within the state of Self, just like my male.  This will be the hardest of the goals I have set for myself.  How can one hope to find two soulmates in one lifetime?  I will find out.

  Well…I’ve kind of given up on this one.  Females are so hard to deal with and I’ve begun to question whether this woman I described above even exists.  Yes, perhaps there is a girl out there for me who is just as perfect as my current partner, but how would she handle herself in a triangle?  I could see things going so horribly wrong in so many different ways and ruining both relationships so quickly.  Call it growing up or call it becoming jaded about the existence of perfection, but I’ve put this goal on the back burner for now.  Maybe Ms. Super Amazing is waiting for us at whatever graduate school I choose.  *crosses fingers*

  6.)  Once my body is correctly rearranged to my liking, I will need a new set of clothing and jewelry to draw attention to my hard work wherever I go.

  Done!!  It’s so exciting!  I really should post some pictures of myself in my new outfits.  I’ve gone from ragamuffin to classy lady and it feels wonderful!

  7.)  At all times I require more pornography (especially hentai) and video games for enjoyment purposes while I am not studying.  These will need to be acquired.

  Oh gosh, I guess inheriting my fiance’s old porn stash covers the first part of this one.  It was like Christmas!  I got to go through and delete the stuff I didn’t like and pick out all my favorites.  He had done all the work already and I got to reap the benefits.  Also, between the time when I posted this list and today, I discovered futanari and subsequently downloaded massive amounts of it.  Yeah, I’m good on porn for several months now.

  As for video games, well, lately I’ve been playing a lot of World of Warcraft and Left 4 Dead, so yeah, good to go on this part of the goal as well.  I should also add that perhaps I didn’t think of other non-video games like Warmachine when I made this post, but I have also gotten into that for stress relief.  Also playing Settlers of Catan with my parents is wildly more fun than expected (we never did have game nights at my house when I was young and now I know what I was missing) and I’m glad my dad decided to buy the game.  I hope he branches out and buys a bunch of board games because I love playing them.
  

  8.)  I must work hard to attain more money, for while it does not buy happiness, it does help to facilitate the coming about of it.

  I’m mostly good on this one.  Summer may be tight but I know once I get to graduate school I will be making over double what I make now and I honestly don’t know what we are going to do with the money.  I anticipate saving it because we really don’t want for anything now.  Heck, I bought a DS on a whim and impulse bought Rock Band for no reason, so yeah.

  9.)  My dorm room is very drab and boring and decoration is in order for next semester.  Joy in the home is most important!

  Lol, yeah, not in a dorm anymore and our apartment is pretty festive.  We have lots of silly posters I got from working at the V-Gate as well as a small fiberoptic Christmas tree that we leave out and turned on pretty much all year.  I would refer to that as joy in the home.

  10.)  I must begin saving money for the perfect home (complete with DDR machine and hot tub) for myself, my male and my female.

  Well, haven’t done a lot of this, but with housing prices so low right now I don’t anticipate any problem finding a place in whatever town we move to for graduate school.  Plus I’ve never made a late credit card payment and I paid off a loan on a car back in high school, so my credit should be really nice and I should be able to obtain a pretty low interest rate on a loan for a down payment if it comes to that.  Still, I can’t be sure how things will go so I’ll just have to cross my fingers that we find a great house at a great price and don’t have to rent anymore.

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  Well, that was fun.

  Anyway, a more mundane set of goals are those I need to complete before the beginning of the semester.  They are as follows:

  - vacuum the office

  - clean the bathroom

  - do the laundry

  - get groceries

  - take that huge tub of cheese popcorn to our friends’ apartment

  - get binders ready for class

  - buy textbooks

  - clean the kitchen

  - pay tuition by the 15th

  - put on new license plates

  - get CHEM 3200 textbook when it comes in

  and that should be all.  Not too bad of a list for a whole week to get it done in.  I really hope this semester goes well, but really I just need passing grades (C- for engineering) and I’ll be outta here.  My GPA isn’t super important for this last semester and I just have to make sure and not fail anything.  I’m optimistic, but still nervous just like I always am.  Wish me luck I suppose.

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