September 9, 2006

• Whatever!

  Myspace is lame.  I’m done.  I can’t take it anymore. 
  Too many strange and awkward people messaging me and sending me random
  friend requests.  It definitely sucked.  I’m over it.

  I’ve been using facebook lately to find females, since people on
  facebook vary more widely from the creepy or the very young.  The
  one of which I spoke a couple entries ago is too much of a useless
  partier for me.  I find her irritating.  She has huge
  breasts, but they do not make up for the lack of a firm “I’ll be yours
  and only yours” attitude.  Below her right eye she has two large
  freckles.  They make me smile, but again, not enough of an
  enjoyment for me to continue wasting my time with her.  She is
  very intelligent and we have similar attitudes on many things, but she
  is just too uncommitted to be in a relationship with both me and my
  male.  I need a special sort.  Another female from facebook,
  one I messaged last year, randomly called me a few weeks ago.  Her
  delicate state of mind frightens me, but she is needy and fragile,
  someone I could control.  I like that.  I could tie her up
  and have my way with her and her submissive attitude would cause her to
  enjoy it I think.  Unfortunately, she is very strange and we do
  not share common interests.  She is awkward and is not very
  attractive in the face.  Her body is very slight and I have a
  feeling her little bones would stick out every which way when
  naked.  Unfortunate indeed…  Finally, I searched for an
  Asian, a beautiful bisexual Asian to enjoy.  I found one.  We
  went to Panera and discussed many things.  She is the closest
  yet.  If only I hadn’t dropped that I had a boyfriend in a moment
  of weakness.  She is beautiful, intelligent and I want to see her
  again.  Her face was that of my ideal intelligent Asian, but not
  that of the schoolgirl Asian which I would also go for.  She was
  skinny and had breasts nontheless.  She is older though, close to
  graduation.  Even though the difference is only two years, it
  seems evident that she is more mature that me.  I am not sure I
  can wrangle her or if it is even a possibility.  She also seems as
  though she is not the kind to share herself with two people…it is sad
  indeed for me.

  My male and I are doing well.  I find him increasingly submissive
  and loving every day.  I like to be in control when it comes to
  sexual activity.  It turns me on to think of others as my sexual
  servants as I make them moan and sigh.  I wouldn’t enjoy another
  dominant creature in the mix.  He gave me permission to order a
  strap-on anal dildo for him.  I’ve never felt anything like that
  before.  As I gently pressed it into him, I felt the pressure
  against my pelvis and I wondered if this was what he felt every time he
  was inside me.  It was the most amazing thing I have ever
  felt.  Sometimes I wish I could have a penis, just for a few
  minutes, so that I could see what it was like to do all the things that
  males do.  We bought a hentai yesterday called Dragon Pink. 
  If you are in the mood for something silly and don’t want to get off,
  you should buy it too.  I did enjoy it for the little cat girl
  that was in it.  It got me thinking about that manga “Loveless”
  and how hott it would be if my male were to have a little kitty tale
  and ears.  Upon stating this, he began meowing to me and making a
  purring sound as he rubbed his body against mine (we were naked of
  course, since it was hentai time).  I don’t know why but it was
  soo hott.  I instantly became very very ready for action. 
  Ah, my male, so perfect in every way.  Other than all that naughty
  stuff, he has been very supportive.  I have been stressed lately
  and have not been able to spend as much time with him as I would like
  (which would be 24/7, but that is not possible), but he has been very
  kind and loving through it all.  I have been emotional as well and
  he still endures it, comforting me and holding me gently.  Without
  him I am nothing.  I need him for survival.  He is embedded
  in my soul and cannot be removed except by perhaps years of
  mistreatment to erase all that he has built in my heart.  We are
  one.  When will I find the female that can become one with both of
  us?  I do not know.  I hope it is soon.

  College has brought up many questions that I am hard pressed to
  answer.  My classes are quite hard this semester and I am
  beginning to think that I am reaching my threshold of
  intelligence.  I am currently in a classroom for 23 hours of the
  day.  These include Physics 2 with lab, Chemistry 3 with lab,
  Calculus 3 with mathematica labs, Russian Civilization with a writing
  intensive stigma, and Foundations of Family Studies, my slack off class
  with extra honors time on Sundays for 2 hours. I study for those
  classes for another 30 hours per week, including reading, doing
  homework, working in labs, meeting with T. A.’s and all of that. 
  I sleep for 7 hours per night.  This really cuts down on the time
  that I can spend relaxing and having sex.  I have also started a
  DDR club.  It is fun and I am glad I started it, but I notice
  myself becoming less and less sociable.  I notice it too in other
  activities and at other times.  Am I losing the will to make new
  friends with the knowledge that I do not need them with my male
  around?  Have I become a recluse, hoping only for the day when all
  other people disappear from my life except my male and (hopefully)
  female?  I just keep thinking of WoW and how they all remind me of
  NPC’s.  They seem to have tailored responses that they produce
  each time you talk to them.  At least they aren’t trying to sell
  me swords.  I saw a boy the other day with a shirt that said NPC
  on it.  My heart jumped.  I was scared.  Sometimes I
  almost feel that I am losing touch with reality.  I need some kind
  of doctor of the brain…or perhaps I just need to quit being such a
  hard worker and go get drunk for the first time.  I don’t
  know…  Also, I am beginning to think that I may not want to be a
  chemical engineer.  I kind of want to major in human
  sexuality.  It interests me greatly and I think maybe I could help
  others with the same nymphonic traits as myself.  It’s a hard life
  when everything you think of is sexual.  So I suppose what my
  point is, is that I am in turmoil and I am becoming more confused with
  each passing day.

  I wonder if anyone will read this, after my long sabbatical.  I
  suppose I don’t really care.  You are all just NPC’s, you people
  who leave footprints without comments.  Go and sell your healing
  potions and give your quests to someone else!  *shakes fist in
  air*  Damn NPC kids!  Stay off my lawn!

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