April 26, 2006

• #5 and #7

  I am beginning to wonder about myself. Is the only reason I am on xanga to find a female? Do I really want to share my life with others, or have I become an internet predator of a minor degree? The more I think about it, the less sense it makes, though. I really like telling people what is going on in my life without them knowing who I am, where I am, what I look like, or really anything. This little piece of xanga is my special place to hide my entries in plain site with all the other bazillion xanga sites. When I think about it I kinda hope the things I say make others happy, or at least make them feel like they should be more greatful for the things they have in their lives. I hope my xanga does good. However, for all my chatter about all that, I do also hope that my xanga leads me to a female who I can share with my male. I should repost my requirements for said female. I can't wait for the day when I can hold her in my arms and see her smiling at me. I continue to imagine how nice it would be for my male, my female and me to sit in my male's SINGLE room next semester naked and enjoy hentai together. I wonder if this will ever happen or if I am just kidding myself. Oh, I hope goal number five is not too impossible. We shall see.

  As for goal number seven...I must back off the hentai purchasing. My mother wants to know why I need to borrow some money from her for my car payment...and I don't want to say, "Well, Mom, I bought a whole shitload of hentai this semester and now I need money for the important things because I am a shortsited idiot." Then she would be like, "What's hentai, dear?" and I would have to explain. In the end she would of course give me some money because she loves me and she knows I would pay it off with my work for her in the coming season of cleaning apartments for rerental to college boys, but still. I feel bad for having to borrow money from my parents who already do so much for me and pay for so much of my tuition. They say they don't mind because they don't want me to work and also I got scholarships, but I feel bad anyway. They had to pay for me from the moment I was a tiny squalling creature freshly born, so now that I have the means to get a job I feel bad. I love them. But, anyways, I am just going to have to enjoy the hentai I already have. I really like the one called "Stainless Night" anyways. That is probably the best 30 dollar hentai DvD I every bought. Really good. I love how the female android is able to please both men and women with her various...aparatus. Very pleasing.

  Well, I have to get to that damn whore Physics. *narrows eyes* One day, Physics, one day...you will be defeated.

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