May 10, 2006
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Sometimes...
Sometimes I want to hide. Sometimes I mess up something and it makes me want to be away from everyone and everything. I have such strong emotions all the time. It's funny how one single nasty comment can outweigh all the good stuff that happens in a day. I always think it is so funny how that works. It's like how one drop of food coloring spread through an entire glass of water...even though it was just one little drop. Anyway, enough about that. No one knows what I am talking about.
On the upside, my Microeconomics final is over and the results are in! I only got two wrong, making my final score overall in that class a 91.4% and all I had to do was get an 83%! Alright, that means that I have eleven hours of 4.0 down...five to go. Calculus and I will meet on the battlefield tomorrow and we will see who comes out victorious. *narrows eyes* I am very proud of this year so far.
Speaking more on the hiding thing, I've noticed lately that I really only want to spend time with my male. I don't like the other people in my dorm that much. There aren't really any other nerds...and if there are...they are hiding in their respective rooms just like my male and I do. We are antisocial. I don't really mind too much except I am getting out of practice dealing with others. This summer I am sure there will be like a bajillion high school buddy reunions (not like Jenova, like float trips) and I just don't know how people will like me anymore. I am pretty different. I don't hide things anymore and put on a happy face when I am actually horribly depressed. I am happy with myself now and I am perhaps at times a little bit full of myself. I don't know what to do. I like this new me. My male likes me. This new me is the real me. I guess what I am saying is I hope my friends still like me, because if they don't I really don't care, because I like me. Let's just hope that I can get some of my social skills back before the next big party. I don't know how to start conversations anymore with people other than my male and feel comfortable with them. I've lost most of my charisma (down from 15 to 10) so I guess I will just have to work a little harder than normal with my friends. Coming from a small school, we were really all just friends by requirement because there were no other kids around except us. Will this fragile bond last through the Freshman year of college? Only summer will tell. Alright, enough.
Okay, I am done. I'm in kind of a bad mood now, so I think I am going to stop. Tomorrow will be a terrible day. I will miss my male so...
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I really understand what you were talking about in that first paragraph. Alot of good things happen to me during the day but one little sentence from someone can totally turn around my day and then I'm angry and secluded.
yeah finals start tomorrow for me and im pretty bummed. oh well. its time for a nap. peace
-ky-
yeah ... a girl killed herself in rockbridge state park. she was all depressed cause her boyfriend broke up with her so she got drunk and shot herself. sad, though, right?
fun finals : ] **good luck**
Just remember that usually that one drop of color disappears after a few seconds because the amount of it compared to the rest of the day...Just depends on how you look at it because there are a lot of comments in one day... Anywho...good luck on calc. I will actually be right there with you. I'll be taking it too only I know I won't do half as well as you because I am one of those dumb kids that things like that don't come easily to...
the kids that found her were orienteering ... the 8th graders at the jr highs find the markers in the park with maps and compasses and the girl was right near one of the markers : [ (by now that was very random though)
I'm in the one for dumb kids...ha ha 1320 I think... Elements of Calc.
haha...theres never a best way to start a conversation u just do it....and if they quit being ur friends...then they were never your friend to begin with...so dont wrry about that...stuff happens...to test you..and u just get through it...i may be only graduating high school but ive lived a life that forced me to grow up .....but cant do it too much still have to remain a little on the kiddish side....keeps me entertained.....so have fun and dont let people get u down cause that one person has nothing on the group that makes you happy...well then ima off...cheer up and look at the finer things in life...agape
hey
Hi!
rock on i totally spanked the hell out of my microeconomics test too.......we are teh 1337 Economists. The world shall bow before our econic like might! See you next year.
Me too! I love neko! >^.^< *wide open* I don't know what I want...
Your welcome! >^.^< Mew! *cheerfully smiles*
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