I hate it when I type .ocm instead of .com. Pisses me off.

I'm feeling kind of mysterious today. Maybe I will save my entry for later...

If you can be overwhelmed...can you be underwhelmed and if someone asks you that question, do you have permission to punch them in face...especially if that is like the millionth time they asked you? I think yes. Prepare yourself, foolish female...

I'll make a real entry later. Shower time!

I'm kind of boring right now. I haven't really done anything since I got back from St. Louis. I just took my Chemistry final and I think I did well enough to secure my A in there. Three hour 4.0 for that one. Anyways, feeling pretty sad right now because I know that in a few days, my male and I will have to be apart. Only two hours will separate us, but with both of us working for the summer, we may not get so see much of each other. This thought just keeps running through my mind over and over and my sadness builds. I will miss him so much. He is so wonderful and perfect, as I have said many times before. Without him I am nothing and we cry when we talk about it. We are pansies. I don't want college to be over for now. I want the next semester to start right after finals so that we can stay together. *sigh* I love him.

Anyways, sorry this entry was a bit depressing, but I am slightly depressed. I mean, not real depressed because my life is so freaking awesome, but you know how algae grows on water and just the surface is covered? The algae is my depression. I'm just slightly depressed in the most surface of ways. Just a little bit of me is sad, but the rest is still really happy! Don't worry! Well, sorry, but that is all for now.

I just want to let everyone know my stance on guilds in the World of Warcraft.

Guilds...guilds, guilds, guilds... Starting guilds is a bad thing when you aren't hardcore. RP servers are the worst places to start guilds. Why did I start three guilds on RP servers? Why? Long ago...before it was time for finals...I had these three guilds. Oh, foolish me. They took the fun out of the greatest MMO of all time for me... I devised a plan. I was pissed off anyway. I would not miss playing. I didn't log on for over a month. I logged back on for the first time today. I was pleased. The guild were very empty! Few were left and only those who had not been on in over a month like me. Pleasing, so pleasing. My male and I will begin anew. We were at level 30 with our little night elf lovers. I, the warrior and he, the druid. We owned. Now we will continue towards level 60 without all the damn hassle of those idiots who were always hanging around. "Dancing Trainer", my Alliance guild on the Argent Dawn server, has but five members from the previous thirty-five. "In Search of the Light", my Horde guild on Argent Dawn now has only me (giggles) and I set the guild message to "Sex." just because no one else can see. Jerks. Finally, my Alliance guild on the Silverhand server, "Shiny Things Vendor", is now only me and two others. These are pleasing numbers to me. I want only to have the names of the guilds underneath my name. I do not want all the damn stress of being a guild leader. Other people are freaking jerks, especially when they all decide that the others are ninja-ing stuff and then fight with each other all the time in dungeons and get us all killed. God dammit that sucked. Just because you know what you are doing and you know how to tell other people what to do does not mean they will do it. Just because your male has a level 60 and knows how not to die doesn't mean people will pay attention when he says, "Stay put." There is no "idiot proof" guild in World of Warcraft.

Anyway, enough of my rant. I am pleased to start playing again with my male. It is lots of fun to trek around and get stuff and /kiss each other all over the place. Good times. And when you are a "Dancing Trainer" you can /dance all the time and people like it, especially if you take off all your gear and are a night elf (WoW equivalent of Asian). I hope that a 56K connection over dial-up will allow me to even log on over the summer... I guess I can take a certain level of lag before I just smash my computer. We shall see. It would be a great way to talk to my male over the summer and do something other than sit with a phone on my face while I'm at it. I just hope there aren't any big patches over the summer to download or I will have to leave my computer on for like a week to get the game patched. Damn you dial-up and living in the God damned boonies, DAMN YOU!!! *waves fist in air angrily*

Ah, laundry, you halt my typing. Enough of my WoW ranting anyway. Only comment if you are a friggin' nerd like me. Otherwise I will call you a n00b and tell you that I pwn you and you won't know what is going on.

Alright, as if anyone is still paying attention to my life goals or ever was in the first place, let me give a run down.

Goal number one has been put on hold for finals week. It is a proven fact through my experiences that tests taken with less food in my stomach equals less right answers, so I have decided to eat normally for this coming week of finals. Now, this will mean I gain and lose no weight, so I will still be at 125 or so after the week, but I will not have lost any. I am still pleased with my progress and plan to be at 110 around the middle of the summer season. This means new clothes!!! Anyway, I will keep everyone posted as to my progress as the summer continues as well as I can with my damn dial-up, that whore.

As for number five......I just can't get these fantasies out of my head. I keep thinking about what it would be like if my roommate next semester turned out to be a bisexual, or a bisexual asian (OH GOD HOTT!!!) and we ended up making out and then she became my male's and my mutual girlfriend. Makes me pretty hott just thinking about it. The senarios just keep running through my head, over and over and over again. Not that I am complaining...but when I think about winning the lottery and getting that kind of roommate, I feel like the odds are about the same. However, people still win the lottery, so there is a chance, but it is a slim one. Oh man that would be awesome to like the freaking tenth power (awesome^10).

Speaking of awesome^10, this weekend was pretty awesome up in ol' St. Louie. My male and I went to his house and hung out there for a while so we could get some of his stuff home this weekend as opposed to later. That's not the cool part though. The cool part is what we did. I'll start with the not super cool part first. We went to the mall and he bought me Final Fantasy 4 for the Gameboy Advance SP. He spoils me. Okay, now the pretty neat part. We watched Memoirs of a Geisha together. How many males would enjoy that movie with their females and how many of those would be intelligent enough to really understand it? I am soooo lucky to have my perfect male. We both sniffled. Finally, the super super ultra awesome part! After the movie, we took pictures of each other to last us over the long summer days when we aren't together! First, I told him how I wanted him to look and pose and move and then he told me. It was pleasing! Then we had a ton of hardcore sex and took even more pictures! Oh yeah, it was awesome!!! I can't believe my luck! He is perfect. He is wonderful. He is attractive. He is super smart. He like photography, naughty and nice. He likes video games. He is just perfect in all ways for me. He makes my life so incredible! What did I do in my lifetime to deserve such gifts of luck? I don't know, but I am freaking glad I did whatever it was.

Anyway, enough. Just updating for everyone. Hope you all had a great weekend and I hope finals go well!

Yeah, so Physics is in the bag, bitches!!! I totally won that one! Checked my answers online and I got about a 96 out of 110 (+ or - 3 depending on the grading)!!!! So, yeah, 4.0 for five hours of that hell. Gosh, that rocks! I am in such a good mood now! My male and I get to go to St. Louis with his parents to eat some hardcore Italian food and enjoy ourselves since our classes are all done. I am excited. I very much like my male's parents and he says they like me, too. Pleasing indeed! Well, I got to get back to studying, sorry no long entry today... In summary I am very happy with myself and very pleased overall. Good luck everyone! It's crunch time!!!

So about the previous entry...probably pretty confusing if you are not me or my male. I just posted it because I was proud of it at the time. If you don't understand or aren't on the MU campus it's cool. Just pretend it doesn't exist because you won't get the jokes. Anyway, hope everyone has a great finals week! We will see how much I can post...

Here's just a little idea me and my male came up with. I think if he was a superhero he would be Logic Man.

Enjoy!

Well, with finals getting close I am getting pretty busy and then it will be summer. I have dial-up. Don't expect too many posts... *sigh* Sorry, don't have time today to post a big on so I will just say a little bit. I have a damn Physics test to study for, that whore.

I just thought I would share with everyone that I love showers and I've been trying to figure out why. I think I got it today. I was standing under the ultra-warm water enjoying the gentle waterfalls off of my nose and cheeks when it hit me. The reason I like showers so much is because they feel the same on the outside as hot chocolate does on the inside! They make me feel better just like that warming sensation in the winter. Anyway, I gotta get to the studying thing...bitch Physics...

I promise I will post as much as I can in the summer! Comment with how your final go and such! I would love to hear from everyone over the summer!

I wish I had a digital camera so I could take pictures of all the pretty things I see up here and post them on my xanga and take them home to show my parents and all that. The sky, the plants, the trees, the flowers, the grass, the birds, the random bunnies, the buildings, the random hott chicks, the random cool cars, my dorm room, myself, all kinds of things are worthy of taking pictures of to share with others. I just had a meeting for one of my engineering groups and the trees outside the EBE were so beautiful! They had pretty little white hanging flower formations and the leaves were brilliantly lime green. They were so pretty and kind of surreal at the same time. Maybe I should make another goal to buy myself a digital camera so I can take pictures of all this crap. So beautiful.

Anyway, I am continually reminded that my life rocks all the time. I just had this overwhelming feeling of it today when I got out of my Chemistry review. I found all the things that other people were asking about so easy to understand. I looked up at the ceiling in the room I was in studying and I thanked whatever is out there for my above average intelligence and also for not making me a idiot savant. I feel like I have the perfect amount of brains to make life easy, but still challenging sometimes so that I don't get bored. Then, when I left the graduate student building where I had been studying I felt kind of lonely, since it is pretty far from my dorm and I had to walk back all alone, so I called my mom who talked to me the whole way back even though she and my father were really busy with the apartments at the time. I have such a loving and wonderful family. As I walked back, I noticed how beautiful the sky and the clouds were and bumped into a super hott asian girl while I was looking up. Score! She smiled and bowed to me and I was totally thinking about asking her out, but I was on the phone with my mom, so I didn't, but still, cute little coincidences like that happen to me all the time. I love coincidences! When I got back to the dorm, there was my male, waiting for me with open arms and joy in his eyes. He is so wonderful and perfect! I just felt so happy at that moment, when I got back and I was in his arms that nothing else mattered. I think that is the way someone you love is supposed to make you feel, like they are the only thing on the planet other than you that matters at all. I love him!

You see, this is why I can't get too mad about little random stuff like a bunch of stuck up honor kids from my building laughing at me. My life rocks! I know it! There is nothing that anyone could do that would make me think otherwise!! And even though those kids suck, I hope they also have great lives like mine, because everyone deserves one, and if any one of them ever needed my help with something I would gladly give it because maybe it would teach them a lesson and they would think twice about the next poor sod they make fun of. There is nothing better than finally feeling like this. After seven years of depression and many thoughts of killing myself just so people would finally notice how sad I was, I have the perfect life! I did before, too, I just didn't really realize it. I took everything for granted because I felt like no one cared about me, but now I have my male, and I know that I always will have him to love and take care of me. He is the light in the darkness of my depression, and now that light is so strong that only the greatest shadows can cast any darkness anymore. Small things, like getting made fun of or finals week cannot hurt me.

Speaking of finals week...I think I got this. Chemistry is in the bag already, no doubt. Economics is looking good. Just need a bit more studying and I should be able to get an A easy. Calculus seems alright for the final, but I have to do really well if I want to overcome all my bad quiz scores from the rest of the semester. I still think I can do that one. Now, Physics, that troublemaker, is going to be a little sketchy, but with all the extra credit the teacher gave, I should be safe. I can see that 4.0 in the distance, I can almost taste it...or something. Anyway, enough about me. In summary, I have got to be one of the luckiest, happiest people in the entire world and I am very, very pleased.

So I got up this morning and I saw it was raining. I love it when it's raining. I was automatically in a good mood. I decided that since it was such a nice day outside that I would take the oppurtunity to show off my hott bod, considering I was proud of the five pounds I had lost. I was excited. I picked out my favorite pair of jeans and this little shrug thing you are supposed to wear over another shirt. That way my whole sexy tummy showed. I looked hott, at least to myself and I am sure that when I see my male in about an hour he will think so, too. After getting dressed I headed out to Physics and strut around while I was getting there. I was pretty excited to look good enough to feel comfortable in something that showed so much of me (I might post a pic later if I feel like it so everyone can see what I am talking about.). Then, after I got out of Physics, a bunch of the kids from my hall were standing around outside the door. I don't particularly like them. I'll leave it at that. They all looked away from me as I walked out the door, which I thought was strange, so as I passed them I looked back. They were all laughing at me!! Those jerks! Good thing I have a very strong ego and think I am awesome no matter what a bunch of crappy jerk people think, but if I had been a weaker person I am sure I would have been very, very sad the whole rest of the day!

People like that make me so sick! If you find your happiness in the sadness of others I think you are lower than low! Maybe someone didn't teach those idiots the goddamn golden rule back in their elementary school days! Whatev. Anyway, that's my rant on mean people. I know we can't all be nice all the time, but everyone should at least try and avoid making fun of random people just to please themselves. Overall, I am still pleased with myself, but I am slightly angry with those fools from my hall.