Ughhh...it makes me so sad. I was looking through all the profiles like the weirdo that I am and I see all these neat looking males on my xanga metro. I'm sure they are all really sweet and cool and just perfect nerds, but the thing is...no one appreciates them. There just aren't enough girl nerds in this world of ours. I am a rarity indeed. If every nerd was going to find someone who liked the same things as him and would support him in his video game/computer related endeavors, then about three-quarters of them would have to be gay. It's sad. I wish I could go out with all the sad, lonely nerds and play WoW with them and talk about the good old days of the original Nintendo with them and make them feel proud to be the cool kids that they are. Unfortunately, while I am sure that they are all nice...none of them could be as perfect as my male, so I have no desire to do so. I'm just saying, I wish I could. They all deserve that, and what's more, they are usually the kind, gentle males who would be just wonderful loving boyfriends and they really deserve some sex from something other than their hands and their porn.

In summary, my point is that I am going to figure out how to genetically engineer females who want nerdy males so that they don't have to live alone in their parents basements with their hentai for the rest of forever. This injustice must stop, and I will be the one to stop it!! *raises fist in the air...then puts it back down* Well, maybe I won't, because I'm a chemical engineer, not a biological engineer. Oh, well, someone should. Anyway, that's my rant about all my poor little male nerd brothers. I got your back, y'all! One day you will be rich and all those bastards that got all the pussy in high school will be picking up the garbage at your mansion while your blackmarket love-slave rubs your privates. Remember that!

As I was checking out a bunch of different xanga sites, as is my way, I noticed something. Most people have almost no comments on their sites. Then I looked back at my site and smiled, seeing all my kindly, loving commenters. I have quite a few compared to some people and I just wanted to thank everyone who comments on my stuff and makes me feel special! I know sometimes I'm not that interesting or I say stupid stuff or whatever, but thanks for sticking with me and commenting on my site. It's nice. It makes me feel stronger and more supported so that I feel comfortable posting all that I do. Thanks!

Well, I'm going to have to hold off on goal number one for a while...since finals are coming up and all. I can't concentrate as well when I don't have a lot of food in me, so I want my brain to be in top condition for next week. I will be eating enough to maintain my current weight, which is 125 lbs. by the way (Hellz yeah!), and I will be studying like a mo fo...if mo fos study... Anyway, yeah, gonna go off the hardcore diet for a bit to win at school like the hardass I am.

*SIGH* As for goal number five...I am not gaining much ground. It is saddening to say the least. I have found very little in the way of females to satisfy my craving. Also, lately, with the onset of that new site I found for all my futanari needs, I am hornier than ever. I am almost constantly swimming in thoughts of me and my male and my female doing all kinds of things. There is this particular picture of a female that my male enjoys, I believe it is the second to last picture in "Third" on my other site (see interests), and he told me a story last night before we had a large quantity of incredible sex. He talked about what it would be like if we had her to play around with and I went wild. I can't get the thought out of my head now! I need a female! I want to squeeze her soft, curvy body to mine and feel her breasts against me! Why is this so hard??? I know I am being ever so greedy in the wish for two soulmates to share the rest of my wonderful life with, but I want it so bad! I will repost my wants.

I have been thinking about what this perfect female must be for me to accept her as my second mate and allow my male to enjoy her also. I have come up with a short list of requirements:

1.) She must be asian, for that is what I am not and what I wish to be.

2.) Her face must look very close to a computer generated image of a person, rather than a real person, so that I can easily imagine her body shiny and smooth in one of my hentai.

3.) Her hair must be longer than one foot or at least touch her shoulders so that I might enjoy running my fingers through it and braiding it. My male also wishes for this, for he enjoys the pleasure it causes me when he does it and would obviously want this feeling to be passed on to our new female.

4.) She must be less than a size 8, for that is all I will tolerate and I will say no more.

5.) She must have sqeezable breasts, ready for my touch and my male's touch at the same time.

6.) She must enjoy one of the following: video games, hentai, anime, or DDR. Without one of these, she will be too far removed from the lifestyle my male and I already lead.

7.) She must have smooth skin and no acne on her body. A small amount on the face is acceptable because it is simply something that happens to most people. Just because I never had any is no reason to discriminate.

8.) She must be open to more females at any time. Should she have a girlfriend, that would be the icing on the cake.

9.) She must be kind, for my male and I are as well and wish for no anger to enter our relationships.

These are the things I require. Should someone reading this notice that they match some of the nine, please comment! I am very lenient, even though it sounds as if I am very set on these things. These are simply my greatest hopes. Many people fit into my category of perfection, for it is wide and far-reaching! Please feel free to post!

I want so desperately to have a loving female to hold and cuddle with naked along with my male. He will have a single room next year and we could have such fun! Oh, the eternal nakedness rule that will be in effect will be quite enjoyable!

Writing about this makes me happy! I am feeling so happy lately. I think it is because my male is perfect and so is our sex, so I have little ability to be stressed out anymore, even though I should be with finals coming up. I just feel so contented, other than for the female wanting, but I have lots of porn to look at in the meantime. My life f-ing roxors! Ah, good times indeed. I am so pleased.

Another thing is that the outside is so beautiful. I can't help but smile each morning as I leave the ol' Twainer and each afternoon as I walk from class to class. The plants, the clouds, the flowers, the beautiful girls that I imagine naked as they walk past me, the fountain, everything is so wonderful to look at. I love Mizzou. I love everything about it.

How could anyone be too stressed with a life like mine anyhow. I love life! I love it!!!! *leans back in chair* Gosh, this rocks. AND eventually I will find that female I seek, I know it, so what is there to worry about except for the longing in my bathing suit area? With worries so subtle, there is only happiness in me. I am very, very pleased!

You know that feeling when you get up in the morning and you just want to go straight back to sleep? Yeah, you do, don't lie. Well, this morning when I got up for my 9 o'clock in the morning Physics recitation, I felt like that. I got up anyway, but I was in a slightly pouty mood. I got dressed after admiring my body for a couple of minutes in the mirror and then ate a hardy breakfast. I felt a little better but I was still pissed because Physics even existed. I went outside and it was beautiful, not because of the damn sun, but because of the sounds! The birds were all chirpy and happy and singy and stuff. I felt better. Put a smile on my face, anyways. Good times. So, yeah, now I feel better. I still want Physics to die on fire, but at least now I can smile about it. Thank you, huge number of birds on the Mizzou campus, thank you!

So, feeling pretty good about life right now and I am enjoying my new xanga. I like sharing my pornograhpy obsession with others! I think I can pass all my classes with A's, but I will have to study hard and get lots of stress removing sex from my male (which will not be a problem at all!). Overall, I am pleased.

My new xanga just for pornography is cat_futanari_etc if anyone would like to subscribe!

For all those who are sick and twisted like me, I found a great futanari site with lots of little cat girls and random other strange enjoyments. I will probably make another xanga to showcase some of these newfound pictures in the near future. More to come on this. If anyone wants to check it out, the site is http://www100.sakura.ne.jp/~discharge/ao_top.html. This site is only for those with interests...varied from the normal. It is a very strange site that simply appeals to all my favorite things. Now, you have been warned and I do not expect anyone posting back that they hate the site and hate me or want me to die or something. That is not cool. If you think that strange things will freak you out, then just don't visit the site and leave me alone. As a side note, I am not a big fan of the fat ones or the ones with too many multiple parts, so don't post back on those because I will be like, "Eww...I don't really agree with you that those ones were good." Oh, and the site is all in Japanese, so just go down to the bottom and click on the red outlined box that says "Gallery". Just letting everyone know!

Alright, this is how it went down. My floor and the other engineering floor in my building had this award system for participating in hall activities. The more you participated, the more fake money you got to use in the end of the year auction for fabulous prizes. I got a lot. We will leave it at that. The star prizes were the flashdrive, the iPod Nano, and the Ping-Pong table. The auction started at 8 o'clock. Now, one might ask me, "Why didn't you go for the iPod or the sweet Ping-Pong table?" My response, "Whatever, I needed a flashdrive. I hate iPods and that damn Ping-Pong table would have been sooo hard to move. Seriously, think about it, ya damn hippie!" When it came time for the flashdrive I had my bidding ready. I was worried that someone with more money than me would be interested also. I was lucky. I made the final bid that I could make and the male that was trying to win it against me could no longer bid me out. I beat him! I was really excited and probably made too much noise.

My male and I instantly left to go see "Thank You for Smoking". It was great! I really liked the movie, but more than that, we went to see it at the RagTag Theatre on Tenth Street. That place is so cool. I really like its excentric little style and the cool consessions you can get there. I'd never been. We had fun and by the time the movie was out it was pretty late and we were hungry. I took my male to Steak n' Shake as suggested and we talked for a really long time but still made it back in time for me to get to bed for Physics this morning. It was a really fun time.

Now I have to study. Finals are next week and the fun time is coming to a close for a bit. I must smash my nose to that grinding stone thing or whatever people say and get my brain in gear. I will win at school. The 4.0 will be mine! *narrows eyes shiftily*

I totally won the damn flashdrive! I rock. I am pleased.