May 16, 2007
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Little things...
Don't you hate how little things, little stupid things can ruin your day even if everything else was great? I know I do.
Mike's back. The simple knowledge that he is in the apartment right now, while I'm at work, and he will be there when I get home, waiting like an abandoned puppy for his master...it just makes me so sick inside. What can I do to make things right for both of us? I need to be single. I know this. I want to have time for friends and fun and doing nothing. I don't want to have to worry about anyone in connection with myself. I like helping people with their problems and hanging out with them, but not if I know I will have to do it every single day non-stop until the end of forever. Maybe marriage just isn't for me. I think I could handle children since they go their own way at about age 14 or 15 and start doing stuff completely separate from their parents, but having someone bonded to you by law for all time until one of you dies...that seems a bit extreme. Maybe I'm just too selfish to love someone, as I've pondered before. I don't know.
Everything else is going great, however. I found out today that I got myself another 4.0 semester. That's cool. Every one I get means working less and less hard for all the semesters afterwards. I like not working hard. Also, money is looking better for me and I think I should make it through the summer with relatively little difficulty in a money sense. Heck, I might even resubscribe to WoW! Who knows? So yeah, good times.
Tomorrow I have work off. I think I'm going to spend the day with my mother and do one of those mother/daughter thingamabobs that people do. She seems interested in going shopping with me...which is odd since I'm not much for shopping and I never thought she was either. I think what the whole deal really amounts to is that she is worried about me and would like an opportunity to talk to me for a while, which I wouldn't mind either. Moms always know how to help. They've lived your life only a few years ago, so they already learned all your lessons and they can really help out when you don't know what to do about things. Dads, too. Anyway, so tomorrow should be a nice day.
Well, I don't have much to talk about. I'm sure in a few weeks I'll have happier stuff to write about. I can't go on not understanding myself forever. I'll get it.
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