June 15, 2007
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Changes
So, just as suddenly as I can feel completely terrible and worthy of instant death (instant hell murder...phhffftt!) I can also feel amazingly happy and worthwhile.
I guess some gauge or other in my mind was been turned down or up or whatever and I have moved slightly closer to normal. Small amounts of feeling for my male are returning. I am not instantly annoyed anymore when I see his face. I sort of want to talk to him again and like hugging him a little more. Now, mind you, I certainly don't feel 100% in love with him again like I did previously, but I think I've turned a corner or whatever it is that people say. We'll see. I've been trying to get away from saying definite things lately, so let's just say that I'm hopeful that we will remain together in harmony into the future, but am still unsure that the situation will indeed occur.
I was very angry about work earlier in the week because my ultra boss, that is the boss of all my other bosses, came in and tried to help me while I was working with some samples that I had made. Unfortunately for her, I had had a rather bad run of things mentally, as anyone who has read this blog knows, and I was very...shall we say disagreeable with her. She, being female, instantly became offended and tried to put me in my place, where I should have gone apologetically. However, my ego injured and my mood poor, I continued to argue with her, to which she responded that if I were to continue to work with her group I had better learn to NEVER argue with her again. I turned away from her and went back to my work, disregarding the last comment. If I had been in her place, I probably would have fired me right then and there.
Thankfully, she didn't and I finished my work for presenting today. As it turns out, what I thought was a complete failure could save the entire world. If I am correct about what is happening, then my new material may be able to reverse global warming's effects enough to return the earth's atmosphere to a normal level of carbon dioxide. I hope my boss thought in her head at that moment that same thing I did, "Thank god I shut up when I did."
So, I guess things are going reasonably well all of a sudden. However, because of the uncertainty that is an integral part of life, I am unsure of the duration of said "reasonably-wellness." I hope it turns out to be more than a few days. That would be a nice change for me.
Last night I went shopping (not the kind where I go with a bunch of girls and try on skirts for six hours) at the ol' mall and found some great buys. On my way to the bookstore, I made sure to glance for the most beautiful Asian girl I have ever seen at the Lollicup place where she works, but she was hiding. I was disappointed. She is the perfect height, weight, and proportion. Her hair is a nice length and her face is perfect. She even has an amazing tiger tattoo that I admire and want to trace with my fingers. Anyway, when I got to the bookstore I discovered that The Elegant Universe by Brian Greene was only $19.95 in hardcover. I purchased it immediately. It should be an amazing read, said to do the same thing for string theory that Steven Hawking did for black holes. I then turned my attentions to the more pressing matter of finding my father a top hat for Father's Day. No place in the mall had top hats. I was disappointed. I am going today to find one somewhere in Columbia and failing that I will have to figure something else out. With this disappointment weighing on my mind I decided to drown my sorrows at EBGames. To my amazement and surprise a sale table was set up containing both Diablo II and the Starcraft battlechest each for $9.99! I was forced to leave these games at home considering they were actually my little brothers and he is currently building a crazy gaming computer from scratch to store every game he as ever played. I would have felt cruel to deprive him of such classic games from his own collection. So, I snatched the two treasures up and ran home to install them and bask in the glory of my triumph. It was a good shopping day, and the first where I just went and bought stuff I wanted that I've had in a long time. It was nice.
Anyway, I must go present on my new global warming avoidance material in a matter of minutes. Figured I'd get an entry in before everything goes crazy busy for me.
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