January 20, 2008
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...and one more.
Thought I would cover other loose ends that I didn't finish in other entries.
Ryan (that young man I was stalking at the coffee shop) is boring and out of the picture. If he happened to call me tomorrow and ask me to come over, get drunk and have sex with him I would consider it, fantasize about it and then tell him no.
He's a pompous ass and is full of boring things. I now recall how I tried to seduce him and wonder what made me do it. I normally can't stand pompous asses. It must have been the low self esteem then that dropped my standards.
And anyway, he has too many blackheads on his nose for me to ever kiss him. His lips are amazing, though not as amazing as my male's. I'm sure they would be fine for kissing, but those blackheads...yeah, they ruin it.
There is a bath tub I wish I had taken a bath in, however. I regret not at least kissing him that day that we watched Outlaw Star. I could feel the tension and I knew that was what he wanted and I wanted it, too, but I was too afraid. If he called and asked me to come over and finish watching Outlaw Star with him I would consider it, fantasize about it and try to decide if I could do it without acting on the tension I feel whenever I see him.
Other than that, anyone else that I might have mentioned I am completely neutral on. Everything else I might have mentioned I am over or almost over after therapy sessions at the student health center.
That should get us updated to the present date.
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