February 10, 2009

• So here I am spending another evening in the engineering library on a Tuesday.  My hands are covered in chalk dust and I like the feeling.  I like to think that teaching students on a chalkboard is more organic and interactive than mumbling about a Powerpoint presentation or getting weird marker scringles under my fingernails.  I feel like I am rubbing a copy of my knowledge onto the board and it is in turn beaming into the minds of the students who are intently listening to my explanations.  It is such a strange and wonderful feeling.  I had 25 students at my help session tonight.  I've never taught that many students at once and it was admittedly a little intimidating, especially when some of the girls look like they would rather gouge your eyes out with their heels than learn anything about chemistry.  Overall, though, the students who take the time to come to a review session have a special place in my heart, regardless of their personality failings.  I want to help them and I hope I end up doing so.

  Anyway, nothing as exciting as getting into a good graduate program has happened since then.  I've been eating really well and sleeping a normal amount and I feel kind of fantastic.  I'm wearing short shorts (well, I mean short as in they don't touch my knees, not as in my vagina lips are almost hanging out) and a t-shirt and I feel absolutely stunning even if the hosts of What Not to Wear would condemn me for purchasing the shirt at Goodwill for $2.  Also, the weather here has warmed up and it smells like spring outside and I love that smell, so I really can't get myself into a real funk right now.  I feel great and I think I look good and my partner thinks I look good and I am as happy as I've ever been in my entire life.  I've always been of the opinion that happiness is a synonym for satisfaction and I can truly say that I am satisfied with my life right now.

  I'm a bit short on cash, though.  Not cash that I necessarily need, but cash to save up and take us on a honeymoon with.  More on this as it unfolds.

  I've been trying to quit one of my jobs to have more times for friends and studying, but as hard as I try my supervisor just will not fire me.  She is so desperate for someone who can tutor people on differential equations that I might as well be made of solid gold to her.  I've succeeded in getting my hours cut in half, but she just will not let me quit at all.  *sigh*  I guess it's nice to be needed, but I think 30 hours a week is enough for my last semester of undergraduate studies.

  Speaking of which, I haven't done anything in terms of research this semester.  I hope that changes soon.

  I know, I'm boring.

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