September 21, 2009

• I'm feeling a fair amount awful today.  It's not because of anything in particular, but instead a combination of a lot of little stupid things, which I will list in no particular order since I probably should have done so yesterday.

  1.  Being told that I don't "pique interest" with my romantic advances by someone I admired.
  2.  Getting my hair cut too short for my own enjoyment and then mentally forcing myself to wear girl clothing even though it is less comfortable.
  3.  Finding it almost impossible to lose the last few pounds I've been wanting to lose for years.
  4.  Gnats!  Everywhere!
  5.  Being told to wear glasses by my husband because it freaks him out to look at me.
  6.  Not being able to complete a large homework assignment because I just don't understand it.
  7.  Getting a crappy score on a homework assignment on which I thought I did fantastic and having a test over it on Friday.
  8.  Worrying about choosing a professor as a research adviser.
  9.  Missing all my friends from undergrad.
  10.  Feeling stupid compared to others.
  11.  Not having enough time to work out or laze around.
  12.  Not spending enough time with my husband lately.

  It's nothing big, as you can see.  I just need to get out of this funk I'm in.  I just need a couple semi-amazing things to happen and I'm sure it will get my mind off of all the little unimportant crappy things.

  I think one of the major problems is that I don't have a lot of time right now because of all the meetings and a laboratory class that runs from 7 - 9 PM on Mondays and Wednesdays.  These things will be over after next week and that will free up my evenings again for homework so I don't have to do it on the weekends.  Then I can use my weekends to spend more time with my husband as well as working out and just chilling.  Heck, I might even find time to seduce the ladies if I'm lucky.  Once I get back to my normal groove of working out and not eating on the run I'm sure it will be easier to loose the weight as well.  I mean, honestly it's only like seven or eight pounds that I want to lose so it shouldn't be that hard.

  I'm just going to try and look on the bright side for the next couple of weeks until I get to a point where I have time again.  I try not to wish away my life, but sometimes I just can't help it.

  • 11:47 am
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