October 3, 2009

• I woke up this morning and started studying.  I took a 15 minute break to eat lunch.  I wasted some time on facebook, maybe an hour.  We had sex for about an hour...maybe a bit more.  I took a 10 minute break for dinner.  I stopped studying only about 30 minutes ago because I just couldn't take it anymore.  I honestly don't understand a majority of the material I'm being presented with in my courses.  I'm seriously starting to doubt my ability to actually excel as a graduate student and I may just have to be satisfied with mediocrity.  Mediocrity isn't that bad though...as long as it doesn't slip into that danger zone of borderline failure...

  I did get an e-mail from a professor today and I'm going to copy and paste it here because it kept me studying when I was just about to give up and go cry on my bed with my husband.

  Thanks for your interest in my group. I enjoyed my conversations with you
  and I was impressed by your strong motivation and excellent academic
  achievements. I understand that you may not have too much background in my
  research area, but as I mentioned to you, several of my former students who
  did not have any bio background before they joined my group are doing very
  well now. As a matter of fact, two of them are now professors in academia
  ([name] at University of Tulsa and [name] at Texas A&M
  University). 
  
  I will be very happy to address any concerns/questions that you may have
  before you make your final decision on Oct. 5. I hope that you will consider
  my group favorably.
  

  To have a professor request that I choose his group, such a vote of confidence really put a smile on my face and brought me out of my funk for just a moment.

  I need to buy a textbook that explains separation of variables.  I think that would make my life much easier.

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